Tuesday, 31 January 2017

Updates, or where on Earth have I been?

It's been an absolute age, hasn't it, things got tough. I think I've alluded to it, but I have depression. Full on diagnosed-been to the doctor, medicated- depression. A lot has happened since I last posted. I finished 2nd year at university and a week later I started my placement year at Adobe. Possibly one of the best jobs I have ever had. 

But this job was based in Maidenhead, so I moved everything over to Maidenhead and lived in a tiny little room in a shared house for a year. It was horrible, and it's because I know that my depression gets worse when I'm by myself and don't know the people I'm living with. It's not so much that I need to constantly be talking to someone, but that I need to know that I can talk to the people around me whenever I need to. 

The isolation was so bad that end of January last year I decided to get myself a hamster. Because I needed company and someone else to look after so that I could function as a human being. I named her Cassiopeia as it is one of my favourite constellations, apart from Scorpio obviously. 
Here she is in all her glory. Obviously it's rather difficult to get a good picture of a nocturnal creature so she was actually far more grey than she looks here. 




Together with Cassie I made it through my placement where I felt so on it, and left having had an amazing time. I learnt a great deal about the way I work outside of retail, and it was nice to be able to complete tasks without being interrupted by a customer who needed to be shown the rack just next to them.

Unfortunately I did have to have Cassie put down before i returned to uni after Christmas, but it was the kindest thing to do. But I will be forever glad of what she meant to me and how much she helped me when I felt so alone and unhappy.

So now I'm living back in Norwich and am in my final year of University, and for the few days that I do have to be in London for lectures and workshops I commute (which is a whole other story). I've already finished about 50% of the course and all I have left is my dissertation.

And then? Who knows, it's a very stressful time at the moment, including figuring out if I'm even staying the UK for the future. (Brexit amirite?) During the next few months I need to, whilst working on the ole dissertation, start working on what I want to do.